well that took longer than expected

[mousapelli]

so here at gym trip number...hm, 27 over the last 5 weeks, I had been wondering exactly when the full-on mutiny would begin.

Answer: tonight, evidently. Left knee was already sort of acting up last week but honestly I was just absorbing that as the cost of business (where 'business' = 'doing anything besides sitting on my couch'). Then I got this wandering spot on my left side where I'll be doing 100% nothing, and suddenly it goes OW FUCK OW for like 3 seconds, and then goes away. Again, whatever. It's not sustained and it's not exactly the same spot each time, just kind of in the same area, so I'm ignoring it.

so i'm on the treadmill, doing the hills as I do because if I leave it flat i might as well be doing nothing, when the left side of my back is like OKAY WE ARE DONE. (as i'm typing this the OW FUCK OW spot just did it again.) I'm like, seriously? we've done treadmill/elliptical five times a week for six weeks and suddenly 3.5 mph at a 6% incline is too much? it's all just a scare tactic too, I want to add, there is 100% nothing wrong with my back or my knee or my side or whatever, it's all a ploy to get me to just stop this whole thing. Dear body: FUCK YOU. stop being 200lbs for no goddamn reason and I won't have to do this bullshit five times a week!!! ugh.

I really wanted to write for je100's free week but now it's 10 already. fail.

Comments

[shabzilla.livejournal.com]

ok so just as I was reading this my left side STUPID OW OW thing just started. my body is trying to egg yours on or something D: I totally just made a goal to get to 75kg too. fucker.

*hugs forever*

if we are squishy together surely it makes up for bodyfail somehow, like shared squish is acceptable squish?

[micchan.livejournal.com]

OMG so amazed you went 27 times to the gym in 5 weeks, that's great. But Ii'm still puzzled nothing is happening to you weight. Is wondering if something is changing at all. Ecliptical should do awesome stuff to ones body. If you'd measure yourself with measuring tape, are there any changes there *looks hopeful*

[mousapelli.livejournal.com]

yeah, it's really annoying. The amount of effort I have to put in is entirely not worth the amount of change I get out of it, but it's isn't like I have some other choice.

I've been keeping track with the measuring tape every couple weeks as well, and there's like a tiny bit of change, but really not much. It's just that my body seems to think 200lbs is exactly what I'm supposed to weigh, so it can hang on there at that weight forever, just waiting for me to get sick of trying.

[mousapelli.livejournal.com]

haha, it happened at school and 8th period was like OMG WHAT'S WRONG cause my face got all funny and i was like idek okay.

I have been wearing your pants like crazy, btw. Thank god you gave me those because i am too fat for US size 14 and not fat enough for 16, so I can't even buy new jeans or anything until i either go up or down.

spanish teacher today (who is white btw) was like, you could just get a black boyfriend like me~ he actually wants me to put on more weight cause I don't have enough 'junk in the trunk' if you know what i'm sayin...i was like OH GOD WUT XD

[micchan.livejournal.com]

OMG must be frustrating and makes you wonder if there might be a medical reason why *pounds head*

[shabzilla.livejournal.com]

I keep powering through at work but today was the killer-- I went martial arts training after a long time and decided that I should go all out for my last fight. :||| But I did kick ass so maybe it's worth it even though I don't want to move a muscle for the next week.

I HAD TO MOVE BUTTONS ON MY WORK TROUSERS ASKLDJA;SLDASD /FATTYFATTYYYYY

aaaaaaaaaahahahhaa best ever. I've decided that I'll only lose weight when I'm in Seoul AKA I should try and squeeze as much as I can into my airfare fund. D: