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mousapelliそして、今年もよろしくお願いします (please take care of me this year too) ♥♥♥
2011 had some amazing moments, like Kisumai debuting and being able to go to their debut tour this summer, and ABC-Z surprising debuting as well, and meeting a bunch of new friends on that trip and now on twitter, being able to stay with![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
snowqueenofhoth in Tokyo and musikologie in Hawaii. I had lasik, which has changed like, everything, and my brother came home safely from Italy.
But it's also been one of the hardest years in a lot of ways, most notably my grandmother dying and being kicked out as department chair, but even before that I hadn't felt like myself in a long while. I spent a good chunk of the fall too depressed to really do anything. I wrote less than 20 fics this year, which for me is soberingly low, and even failed NaNo for the first time since the 2nd year I did it in grad school. And then 'minor' foot surgery turned into 'have barely been able to walk for a month.' So all I really want this year is:
1. To feel more like myself/not so sad all the time, and
2. for my foot to stop hurting.
Sadly, I can't really do anything about either of those, so I guess I'll have to turn instead to
3. writing much more regularly
either way, as always, without fandom and LJ and my friends in/on it, I can't honestly imagine how I would have even dragged myself out of bed for most of the last year, so thank you, all of you ♥ I hope all of your new years are off to a strong start so far, and that you get just as good a birthday party as Koichi does every year (as seen in my icon lol).
2011 had some amazing moments, like Kisumai debuting and being able to go to their debut tour this summer, and ABC-Z surprising debuting as well, and meeting a bunch of new friends on that trip and now on twitter, being able to stay with
snowqueenofhoth in Tokyo and musikologie in Hawaii. I had lasik, which has changed like, everything, and my brother came home safely from Italy.But it's also been one of the hardest years in a lot of ways, most notably my grandmother dying and being kicked out as department chair, but even before that I hadn't felt like myself in a long while. I spent a good chunk of the fall too depressed to really do anything. I wrote less than 20 fics this year, which for me is soberingly low, and even failed NaNo for the first time since the 2nd year I did it in grad school. And then 'minor' foot surgery turned into 'have barely been able to walk for a month.' So all I really want this year is:
1. To feel more like myself/not so sad all the time, and
2. for my foot to stop hurting.
Sadly, I can't really do anything about either of those, so I guess I'll have to turn instead to
3. writing much more regularly
either way, as always, without fandom and LJ and my friends in/on it, I can't honestly imagine how I would have even dragged myself out of bed for most of the last year, so thank you, all of you ♥ I hope all of your new years are off to a strong start so far, and that you get just as good a birthday party as Koichi does every year (as seen in my icon lol).
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Date: 2012-01-01 03:57 pm (UTC)As for #1, I started taking 5-HTP (tryptophan) for my fibro pain and anxiety and am very happy with it. I'm way more relaxed and less sad. It's worth a shot. Basically it's fake Prozac from the vitamin store. I only take a quarter pill twice a day so it's really cheap. I think most people start with half a pill, but I'm oversensitive to medicines. Got the hubby on it too, and it's been good for his temper and he suddenly started doing chores around the house. I noticed a difference the first day, but it takes about two weeks to really kick in.
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Date: 2012-01-01 05:04 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-01-01 05:07 pm (UTC)(Also found 5-HTP very helpful this year, along with the other recs here: http://www.moodcure.com/faq.html)
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Date: 2012-01-01 05:21 pm (UTC)I hope 2012 is better for you, and you know where I am if you need me.
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Date: 2012-01-01 06:53 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-01-02 03:51 am (UTC)